Scraps

Life
is full of new faces and friendships,
new places,
adventures to find;
It’s full of new skies.

But life
constantly heaving and changing
means leaving an old life behind;
It’s full of goodbyes.

If life
means living without you then all that I want
is to be left behind,
let me turn back time
‘till I find you again and hold on to then,
but if my life
won’t let me be with you then let me know
that I am there in your mind.
There, as always in mine.

Hermes Webmail

Err...still haven't started packing yet...pantspantspants. :S

Anyway, here's a song for the cambridge graduates to keep you entertained.

Every night in my dreams
I check you, I read you
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And e-space between us
In Cambridge I know you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that my webmail goes on
Once more you open my inbox
And you're here in my bookmarks
And my hermes will go on and on

Email was when I had you
One true time I hold to
Still it’s so hard not to log on

Webmail is an addiction
And a life time’s procrastination,
And we can’t let go once it’s gone

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that my hermes goes on
Once more you open your pages
And you're here on my homepage
And my hermes will go on and on

I want to jump.

Yay new song! I went to the piano room the other day (due to boredom and waster-day-ness) and ended up staying for 2 and a half hours and randomly writing a song - woo! It ain't that hard once you have a line.

One day I'll jump

I sit. I watch. I wonder why.
I stare into a square of sky.
And when I'm gazing out the window on the brink,
Sometimes I get this feeling, suddenly I think

I want to jump!
Just to see if I could fly
I want to leap!
Even though we're two floors high.
and if I fell, well then I'd know,
But if I soared, think where I could go!

Fly away from here,
Straight into the clear blue sky.
No looking back, on where I've been,
No peeling walls to hold me in.

I wait. Each day, the same, each night.
I wonder if one day, I might...
And when I'm standing at the window wanting more,
Sometimes I wonder, What am I waiting for?

I want to jump! Just to see if I could fly,
I want to jump right out this window, right into that patch of sky.
I want to go, into the blue, into the night,
and then I'll know - what wonders lie just out of sight,

One day I'll jump! Just because I have to know,
One day I'll jump. 'Coz there's no other way to go.
But until then, I'll be OK,
'coz I know anytime I want to
I can fly away!

Fly away from here.
Fly into the clear blue sky.

One day I'll fly.

Another song for a sunny day

This one's never had any chords but I still sing it occasionally when the mood takes me.

I like the way the sun light up the moss in the morning,
and suddenly the wall is golden.
I like the way that I can leave the curtains open so the day streams in.
I'd like to stay
in this one moment everyday
for just a little bit longer,
but I'm up and I'm off, I've got to get ready for the world outside.
I walk and I watch and everywhere seems busy and bright.
And right now, this is what life should be about,
in this moment.
But I've gotta get on, gotta go, no time to stop and stare!
Just passing through, other things to do, though days like these are rare.
There'll be other mornings, other moments, other days,
though none like this one,
can't expect the world to stop for just one hour of bright and glorious blue sky and sun!

Two years

I will never need you, always need you, even though you'll never see.
I'll live without you, have to live without you, knowing it could never be.
I'm living everyday knowing you belong to someone else,
and it'll never go away however much I say it's for the best.
I do not want you, do not have you, it's been years now, really I'm fine.
I no longer want to hold you near me, never dream you could be mine.
But if you asked today
I would not hesitate,
and though I know you'lll never say it, anyway, I can't help hoping.
I can cope without you, lived without you, everday these past two years.
I do not need you. Never needed you at all, despite the tears.
I used to think maybe you felt for me, somehow, something,
No. This time I know, it's done. This is the end now, no more hoping.
No more hoping, wishing, dreaming
waiting, crying, wanting, needing,
I was over you so many years ago; it's true,
It was just a crush that couldn't last, but when I see you still
it's like not a single day has passed,
you were my first,
my last,
but still
I'm fine alone here, now I know for sure that what we had is gone.
And though you're moving on,
I'm still waiting.
I'm still hoping.